300610 de last day of June

Finally June is gonna end. Actually i am waiting for August :P

Just can’t wait to take a break after so long. One more month to go! Phew~

Today my senior told me news that made me kinda shock. He said that next month will be the last month working in the company. If possible he wanna leave earlier. My response is OMG! No way! Senior gonna leave just like that. He’s the god in our office. Oh mai, seriously can’t imagine the day without him around :S

Later, he asked me that if i enjoy doing support. I answered him yes, because working here makes me feels like time passed very fast compared to my previous job. He said it’s because i have a lot of handling case so time passed very fast and he told me that the reason he’s leaving isn’t only because of he’s tired of doing support but something else. Erm. I think he tried to hint me something huh? Well, i am not very sure and i didn’t ask more because i think i won’t be leaving so soon. So please don’t let me know the ugly side at this moment.

On the way back home, i flashed back the conversation between senior and i. I like the job because time flies when i work here. The reason why i like the job is not because of i like support job but the job fills up most of my time. When job consume most of my time, time flies without notice. Compared with last time, i was too free enough to think a lot of what-if questions that make me miserable. Not to say, this days i am no longer thinking about what-if questions but at least it’s not that frequent.

So, it’s a good thing right? At least for now :)

June will be my last month for probation. Yeap, gonna have review soon. i am not really satisfy with my job performance as i think i have did few mistakes in past 3 months. Different company have different cultural and rules. Yeap, i need time to get used to and survive in new environment. It’s difficult when someone is trying to boycott you. I keep myself with a smile and act like nothing happen most of the time. It’s tough but still has to go on.

240610 Critical Case

Was very busy this few days and i am not in the mood to update my blog. Erm.

This week i am on morning shift again and guess what happen yesterday?

A lady called my mobile at 6 o clock morning. RAWRRRRR I am sleeping and someone called de wrong number which is my number. Duh.

Later when i am on my way to work, it starts raining. Duh. It’s so nice to sleep wei! Yes. I know it is but i need to work! RAWRRRR

After i reached office, turn on my desktop, and with outlook and logs opened, i tend to zzz on my desk. Out of sudden, i wake up and check if there are any new emails and ... yes. Here is it, critical case. My first critical case on early morning!
Omfg. I am the only one on morning shift. I am so freaking sleepy and critical case just came in at this hour. I was shocked and stunned. Luckily, there’s another colleague in my office so i called him and told him that there’s critical case. We opened up the case and read the description. My head was full of question marks and so do my colleague. We totally have no idea on what is customer trying to say. Duh. Few minutes later, manager came in. She’s early that day. She asked me to call the customer. RAWR i tried to call but i didn’t managed to call the number. End up my colleague have to help me to call the customer which is allocated at US. After ding dong here and there, we tried to log in their servers remotely and ... tala! We have no idea on how to log in to their server.

While finding ways to log in customer’s server, customer been IM me and asked how’s investigation and blah. I am stressed. My brain is dead. Totally have no idea on the product that customer were using right down. As i dare not tell customer that we are still looking for a way to access their server, i just tell him that we are listing the logs that customer need to provide to us. While bullshit with customer, suddenly he said the service have comes up and it is working. Duh. I hate this. He asked me if i did anything on the server. Oh man, i don’t even know how to access the server, how do i change anything or reboot the server? Amazing. The service comes up itself.
Suppose, i should be happy and ask customer to close the case. Yeah right~ As if they are so kind will close the case just like this. They will still ask you for root cause. If you can’t provide, they will never ever close the case.

After discussion with my colleague, we suspected it’s the network issue on their site but they will never ever admit that. Hence, we still need to provide proof but the traces can only be done when the service is down. So, we need to wait until the issue re-occur. Because the service is up and running, we are not able to do any traces, so the case has been downgraded to major case. Phew~ its major case now, at least i do not need to close the case within x hours.

Today, when i am almost off work, comes in another two critical cases from different customer. For the first case, I did not notice that until manager come out from her room, she pass by my cubicle, i know she is talking but i don’t know what the heck is she talking about because i am happily listening songs using headphone. Until my colleague who is sitting in front of me, look at me with a very big eye and talk with me. I took off my headphone and asked her what happen and she said got critical case. Oh man. Just 15more minutes and it is out of my business. RAWRRRR

But afternoon shift colleague was blur enough and she picked up the case but later paris support team have took back the case. So, end of the story of first critical case.

Around 5minutes later, another critical case comes in. Seriously i am so freaking pek cek because another 5minutes, i can run away from my office already. Luckily the customer owner, my colleague is around, so she picked up the case.

Ok, i think today i am slightly lucky? LOL

180610

不知道为什么
每每我想要有个人在身边的时候
我总是找不到人
而最后都是自己一个人

我不奢求身边总是有个人让我依靠
但是偶尔低落的我
难免需要一个人
哪怕人不能到
一通电话的安慰
我也不会埋怨
我会很知足

我想我要的并不会过分

可是为什么最后
我都的自己一个熬过去

我并不是不坚强
我并不是不独立

为什么我连这样小的要求都没有资格拥有?

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他们常爱说
日有所思,夜有所梦

可是有时候
日没有所思,夜却有所梦
还真的让我很懊恼

连续两天了
都发了差不多同样的梦
庆幸的是
梦里的我并没有很盲目
没有做错决定
但是梦里的我却难免有点难过

要是现实生活里
发生了同样的事情
说不定我不能像梦里一样做对的决定

希望今晚不要再发类似的梦
因为这样的梦
不论我在梦里做现实生活里
都会觉得内疚
都会觉得难过

天使 (三)

啊,在人间已经第三天了
还是毫无头绪爱情到底是什么东西

是不是应该听Abby的话
回去天堂呢?

可是好不容易鼓起勇气飞了下来
这么快就要回去哦?

这几天在人间感觉还挺不错的
有好吃的,也有好玩的
不如就呆多几天吧~

喔,好可爱的小狗狗哦
天堂都没这些小宠物
小狗狗还挺逗人开心的
听人间的人类说
如果你伤心的的话
狗狗是感觉的到的
而且它们还会对主人忠心耿耿和不离不弃

“哦?原来你也喜欢小狗狗哦?”

转身一看原来是一直被我撞到的那个男生

啊,心跳好像变得有点快

“它们挺可爱的,如果我也可以有一只就好了。可是。。。”

“可是什么?”

“就不能养啊”
一直以来天堂都不允许天使养宠物的,我怎么养啊?

“哦,今天有空吗?来我打工的咖啡厅喝杯咖啡吧。”

“呃。。。”
反正没去过,再过几天就要会天堂了。去吧
“好啊”

“走吧”
“对了,我们都遇见了这么多次。还不知道你叫什么名呢”

“哦,我叫Gwen”

“Gwen哦?我叫Aden”
“其实今天我打工的时间已经过了。你应该不介意我和你同座吧?”

“不介意啊,反正我也是一个人”

叫了一杯Latte,和Aden坐在咖啡厅里聊了好久
很快的就已经是傍晚了

“哦,这么快就已经到了晚餐时间哦。我和家人约好一起吃晚餐了呢”

“那你走先吧,我坐多一会就走了”
这里的气氛这么舒服,还真的不想走呢

“呃,那好。回去时,小心点吧。我走咯”

“好,掰掰”
向他招手

“掰掰”

看着Aden走的背影
和他还蛮聊的来的
还好的是心跳没有像之前一样跳的那么快了

我想如果我回去了,
一定会想念这间咖啡厅和Aden的

天使(二)

第二天睡醒了的我
在路上寻找着适合的人来解答我的难题

这个女生
呃,看起来才中学生吧
应该不知道爱情这种深奥的东西吧~

换目标,换目标

这个。。。看起来有点凶
还是不要惹他好了

这个看起来好像在赶时间
不要耽误人家好了

左看看
右看看
就是没有合适的人

等等
那不是Abby吗?
怎么好像老了些
天使是不会老的啊~

“Abby!Abby啊~”
叫了她还向她招了招手

她看了我一眼
不理我反而脚步加快的和同行的男生走进了餐厅

“难道我认错人了吗?明明就是她啊”
想不通的我
在餐厅门口徘徊了一会

接着我看到Abby独自一人从餐厅走了出来
这回我只是看着她
看着她朝着我的方向来着
我想我是真的没认错人

她匆匆忙忙的拉了我去一旁

“你怎么在这里?”
这是Abby的第一句话

“在天堂等你的答案等了好久,就等不及你们回来么。 所以我就下来自己找答案啦”

"找什么答案?"

“就爱情到底是什么东东啊”

“身为你的好姐妹,我劝你还是回天堂好了。什么爱情的,不要理就是了。知道了对你也没什么好处”

一脸迷惑的我
不明白为什么Abby这么说

“为什么。。。”
还来不及说完
Abby就说
“乖,回天堂去。我要走了。记得我说的话”

Abby就这样的走了
留下我一个人呆呆的站在那儿

Abby 明明就为了爱情而下来人间
刚刚她那么说,那她找到了答案了没啊?

一直想着 Abby说的话
走着走着
我有撞到人了
还好的是
这回没撞跌人家的东西

抬头一看原来是昨天的男生

哎呀,怎么又是他啊

“对不起”
我尴尬的说

“哦,是你哦。”
他说

仔细的看了看
这男生还蛮清秀的
带着黑框眼镜
五官还不错的

呃,糟糕
我的心又跳的超快的

“嗯,不好意思。又撞到你了”

“没关系,这回你没撞跌我的东西”
说着他又给我一个大微笑

我觉得我就要缺氧了

“呵呵”
觉得自己笑的超呆的

“看你满怀心事的,你还好吧?”

“嗯,嗯”

“我就在前面那间咖啡店打工,有时间的话坐下和杯咖啡吧”
他说着指向前面的咖啡店

“哦,好。有机会就会去”

“那我走先咯,你。。。走路小心点。不要再撞到人咯”
他说着还微笑了起来、

“嗯,好。掰掰”
忍着,忍着!

“掰掰”

看着他走了的背影
终于松了口气

为什么见到他
心会像昨天一样跳的很快?

呃,奇怪奇怪

就这样的一天就过去了
晚上依旧回到公园睡大觉

为什么Abby会这么说呢?
为什么我遇见那男生我的心会小鹿乱撞呢?

guin

天使 (一)

他们常说人间的爱情
只要一陷入就无法回到现在这无忧无虑的天堂

看着身边的朋友
一个个的用他们的翅膀飞下人间
他们临走前都对我说
“等我搞清楚爱情这东西,我就回来和你分享”

呆呆的我看着他们飞走
还一直在原地打转的等他们回来
等着他们回来和我分享爱情是什么东东

等了十年又十年
和我同年龄的天使变的越来越少
因为他们等不及飞回来的天使
所以他们决定飞下人间
自己找答案再飞来天堂和我分享

胆小的我却迟迟不敢飞下人间
因为身边的朋友飞下人间就没有回来了

一直到
我看到比我年轻的天使也飞了下去
心里想着
或许我应该勇敢一点吧
年纪比我小的天使都飞了下去
而且爱情这东西应该不是什么可怕的东西吧?
如果那么可怕的话
飞回天堂不就行了

好吧~
就飞下人间吧~

把翅膀张开
看着自己坚固的翅膀
没什么好担心的
就这样的飞下了人间


找了个安全的地方降落
施了魔法,把自己的翅膀收好
就大摇大摆的走在路上

收好翅膀的我
就像人间的人类一样
没人察觉我是天堂来的天使

我开始寻找爱情
到底爱情是什么啊?

应该不是食物吧?
那。。。是个物品?

可是传说是说如果陷入了爱情就不能回天堂

皱着眉头的我
一路走着
一路在想爱情到底是什么东西

走着走着
没注意前方
不小心的撞到了一个男生
还把他手上拿着的购物袋给撞跌了
结果他的东西全掉在路上

不好意思的我
连忙帮他拾回他的东西

还真的超丢人的

把东西放进购物袋再交给那男生后
羞怯的我不停的向那个男生道歉
心里一直咒骂着自己不长眼睛

还好的是
男生接过了购物袋
并没有骂我却对我说
“没关系,你还好吧?”

我心里想着
拜托,天使我可是没那么脆弱
撞一下就断什么的

我说
“没事,没事”

男生说
“那就好”
接着他露出阳光般的笑容对我说
“小心点咯”

看着他的笑容
我的脸顿时红了起来
我的心顿时跳的好快

“那掰掰咯”
他说着就走了

慢半拍的我
还来不及反应的说
“掰掰,掰掰”

男生走了后
我开始深呼吸
因为我觉得自己快来缺氧了

到底发生了什么事情啊?
我是病了吗?
平时我都不会这样的
什么心跳加快,缺氧的
我想想是应该去找医生了

找了一整天
都找不到爱情啊

好累
找了一个公园
施了魔法
把草地的一小区变成隐形
好让人间的人类不会看到我

躺在草地上的我
想着应该怎样才可以找到爱情
终于我找到满意的答案了
“明天我应该问问人,爱情到底在哪里”
满意着自己的答案
微笑着的我在翅膀的包围下睡了

有时候,

.
有时候
不是遇上了就能在一起

有时候
不是喜欢上了就能在一起

有时候
不是相爱了就能在一起

有时候
不是在一起就能永远在一起

有时候
不是互相握紧了手就能永远在一起

有时候
不是一起闯过了难关就能永远在一起

有时候
根本是遇到错的人

有时候
根本是误以为那是喜欢

有时候
根本是单方面的爱

有时候
根本没有在一起

有时候
根本都没有把手握紧

有时候
根本都不想共渡难关

有时候
你没的选择

有时候
你有的选择

可是我们往往爱选择那难走的路
因为容易走的路让我们觉得没挑战性

可是一旦我们经历了痛,经历了苦
我们开始寻找那容易走的路

可是原来
那容易走的路是根本不存在的

guin

影片

最近facebook有超多的求婚影片
或是结婚记录影片什么的

每个人在看这些影片的时候
都会说
哇,好感人哦
哇,好甜蜜哦

当然我也不例外
我的反应就和每个人一样
哇,好感人哦
哇,好甜蜜哦

通常接下来
每个人都会想说
如果自己的有个特别的求婚或结婚记录影片
那会有多好
接着就会想
如果同样的事情发生在他们身上有什么事情会发生

可是呢
我的脑袋里却没有这些如果
因为我知道这些事情是不会发生在我的身上
结婚这档事明明就离我十万八千里

虽然说现在我是单身
所以我会这么说
但是我想就算不是单身
结婚这档事依然离我十万八千里

随着时间流逝
看的人多了
刻骨铭心的恋情也曾有了
变的不敢奢求了
变的不敢妄想了
只要不要存着一丝希望
就不会换来一丝失望
一切都可以变的很简单

简简单单的也可以很幸福